American Gaijin

  • The Music is Silent

    I’ve been working on starting a composition over the past couple of days, and I can’t come up with anything.  I mean I’m seriously at a loss.  The music inside my head is completely silent. Which I don’t understand, at all.  I’m usually not at a loss for being creative.  I mean, I’ve been writing…

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  • Anime: Reconnecting with what was Lost

    I’ve noticed in my site stats that I’ve been getting a surprising amount of visits from Japan.  Konnichiwa! They probably just think I’m some American baka, but whatever. Anyway, I had an epiphany today.  And if you care, I’ll share it here. I wrote a concert band piece a while ago, inspired by Sound! Euphonium.  It’s…

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  • Self Control

    In Love Live, there are a lot of different groups, and one of the interesting things is that each one has their own character to their lyrics and songs.  The three main groups – mu’s, Aquors, and Liella, tend to write happy, cheerful songs that are supposed to be like, well, pop songs I guess.  but…

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  • Why Anime Hurts

    I’ve watched a lot of anime lately. Now, let’s be clear about one thing:  I’m pretty picky about the anime I watched.  Some anime that is very popular I dropped after as little as one episode.  “The Quitessential Quintuplets”, for example.  Maybe I’ll pick that up at some point, but I doubt it.  It has…

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  • Hibike! Euphonium: My regrets

    This usually surprises people to find this out about me, but I went to college as a piano performance major.  I didn’t complete college for health reasons, but that was my major.  I attended a medium sized college in Northwest Ohio (you have maybe three to choose from, and I’m very close to telling you…

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  • Eripyo and Maina

    Last night I finished watching “If my favorite pop idol made it to the Budokan, I would die”. It wasn’t a great anime.  I didn’t feel like I didn’t want to leave the world it created, like I did with some anime.  It was actually just fair to middling, I even rated it 6 on MyAnimeList.…

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  • Anime, Otaku, and Lost Childhood

    I didn’t get a childhood. I’m not really exaggerating in that statement, though as with every statement like that, there are nuances.  It’s generally correct. I did not get a childhood.  Every opportunity I had for “normal” development was stunted – either inadvertently or deliberately.  The end result is the same.  I didn’t get a…

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  • I’m a Failure

    I always fail. If there’s one thing that is consistent in my life and has been ever since I was a child, this would be it.  I’m a failure.  Everything I have tried to do in my life has, in one way or other, ended in failure.  Even the most successful things I’ve done are,…

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  • The Customer is Always Right

    “The Customer is Always Right” is one of the most misunderstood adages, mostly because people forget or are conveniently unaware of the second half:  “When it comes to matters of taste”. Practically, what this means, or what it’s supposed to mean, is that if there is a widget that is shiny, chrome with black highlights,…

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  • I am an Artist

    All my life, I have never really understood myself. I mean, of course, I’m me.  I know what is inside my head in a way no one else does – not even me, sometimes.  I have a very complex inner world, and it’s so real and vibrant inside of me that it’s difficult, if not…

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